Mama had once "accused" me of not caring about keeping friendships. Well, I just sometimes, don't really keep in touch with some people. Its not me not caring about those friends, its just me being me.
But lately, I've been thinking of the friendships I still keep. It made me come to the conclusion that I need to end some.
First of all, I'm not the best type of a friend. I'm not one of those comforting types. I sometimes get a bit iffy and nothing can undo the way I was in my teenage years.
I don't believe in ending friendships because you think they're holding you back. That is bullshit. Its up to you and your will power to do things.
The same might be said for ending friendships because they're a bad influence on you. Will power, people.
I've grown out of some friendships and I'm sorry for that. Its the feeling of "However did I became friends with them?" and from what I've heard, its common.
Some people keep friendships due to memories, the whole sentimality thing. They also say the bad parts only make the good parts better. But what if the bad parts still make you cringe while reminding you how depressed you were back then?
What if another person had told you:
"How the fuck did you continued being friends with them?"
That is when you flip your middle finger to all those sentimentality and end things. You don't have to di it with full fanfare. Just, stop slowly.
Which is what I'm doing. I'm ending some friendships and if you want to feel/think I'm talking about you, that might just be guilt. Haha.
I'm doing it so that you won't be able to hurt me again. I've let too many things slide over me. Call me petty for bringing up old things, but those things are happening again, in a different form.
Don't worry, I'll say hi to you if we meet. I'll reply your call/text/message. I just won't be as close.
Have a nice life.