You know how that saying would go.
"Its like watching a train wreck. You know its going to end badly/be horrible but you can't just bring yourself to look away,"
Now I'm not so sure if its a train wreck or an accident. Oh whatever, you get what I'm trying to say right?
Well, I feel like something akin to this train wreck had happened to me recently. Emotionally of course.
I don't want to spill it all here because it wasn't a big thing, or even a sure thing. But I had hope for it. And to be the cause of something happening that crushes the frail hope I held and to have ringside tickets to it too? Its like heart breaking. In a lesser degree of intensity.
So that's how I found myself just few minutes ago, the reality of the train wreck setting in finally as I find myself tearing up at the hope gone.
I'm sad, yes. I'm not devastated.
As I said to the person:
"The offer will be on the table until you say yes. I'm patient,"
Well honey, I'm sorry but it seems you pushed the offer off the table before I could take it away.
Its like a mini mini heartbreak.